Kristine Cuer

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I’m reminded of two things today.

There are some surprises that are unwelcome.

And there are some expectations you would have rather have not been met.

In the end, whether it’s a surprise or an expectation, what’s similar between the two is, you wish it turned out different.

Much like my Earnest Bot Eun Shi Kyung not dying in King 2 Hearts.

Or Jessica Sanchez winning American Idol Season 11.

Another reminder that you can’t always get what you want.

All you can hope for was his death though how lame and how robbed off you feel was for some great narrative purpose. And her not winning the title doesn’t signify defeat but that of a better beginning.

For now, if I need a cause for celebration or a comfort I can use to ease my mind. I’ll just rely on my imagination and I dream of an imaginary time.  A  time when my Earnest Bot is still alive and finally performing a full version of that song with his princess and saying those 3 words in person instead of a video. A time when I get a little choked up while watching her fighting tears and getting through her coronation single as confetti cues for closing credits.

If I believe in all the words I’m saying and if a word from you can bring a better day. Then all I have are these games that I’ve been playing to keep my hope from crumbling away. So let me lie and let me go on sleeping and I will lose myself in palaces of sand. And all the fantasies that I will be keeping will make the empty hours easier, easier to stand.

Everybody has dream. And for tonight, this is my own.