It’s official. It’s my 5th year anniversary in the company. I would love to perhaps pop a bottle of champagne then toast for a celebration. Except that I’m not much of a drinker and I’m just half-feeling the word celebrate. Not really sure if it’s something I should celebrate.
In a way it should. I’ve certainly gone a long way from training, re-training, bad calls, to getting my first agent of the month certificate, passing the tier 2 and 3 exams, getting CISCO certified, being recognized as best employee of the year for 2 consecutive years, getting a promotion as a team lead.
It’s hypocritical to say that I’m not proud of such accomplishments from an industry I thought I won’t last. And I’m thankful for this company for all the recognition of the hard work done over the past 5 years.
But I’m in that crossroad. I can’t help but wonder whether I should go head on or perhaps it’s high time to finally take that leap of faith to take a different direction.
Funny how the last 2 Sunday service I joined all talked about waiting. And I can’t help but ponder. Did I wait long enough already? Do I have to wait more? What does God wants me to do?
If only my life is as easy as my k-drama land where I can stipulate and get to have a preview of what will happen on the next episode. And there I was thinking that I have an oh-so-predictable-life.
Maybe I should just runaway and perhaps all of this will go away.
Maybe I should wait since I don’t know where to go anyway if I will go.
I don’t know.
All I know is that I’m still here. Stuck in the moment. Finding a reason to stay.